I'm completely dumbfounded by recent events.
I have a million questions to ask- what makes sex tonight jokes him so broken that he can do this?
Thats worth more than any sum of dirty money.
But I don't know what to believe anymore, and my resentment for him grows everyday.Perhaps surprisingly, the wedding went ahead.Theres a reason why the crack den cliché exists it really looks like it does in the movies.But it was my gradual addiction that would trap me in the life Id found myself.By the time I was 32, I had moved my brothels out of London and into the Home Counties because the money was better.You live for the hunt when youre a sex addict.Every week, he was withdrawing hundreds of pounds in cash.I love Steve, but Chris and I saw each others angels and demons, which took us to a deeper level of knowing.The first initial reaction was not to blame myself, but I couldn't help doing it anyways.It made me totally incapable of loving anybody.The police got to know me one minute theyd be putting me in cuffs, the next theyd be advising me that a rapist was on the loose and another working girl had been found dead warning me to be safe and look after myself.
But in truth, I was desperately trying to silence the trauma Id spent my life burying, attempting to numb the pain I felt at being abandoned by my mother as a child.
These are women who are disgusting, look like they had too much botox injection or just absolute trash.